Oh baby!

I know I said I would post before and after pictures of our house. I lied. I will sometime but not tonight.
Baby #3 is expected to arrive in a little over 10 weeks. I just thought I'd write some of my thoughts about this new addition to our family.
First off... it has taken a little more work to get her here than our other two. After getting pregnant very easily with both Kassi and Tyler, and having really pretty great pregnancies, I really thought I had control over the whole having kids thing. We had a surprise pregnancy while Ty was still little, and it ended in an early miscarriage. At the time, I was pretty relieved! I really wasn't ready for three kids under 3 years. December 2009 we found out we were expecting again, and we were thrilled! We hadn't really planned it, but were very happy for the surprise. Late January I miscarried again. That was a pretty sad day. Since it was so hard on me, we waited a month and then decided to try again. Soon after I got a positive test I went to the doctor. He did an ultrasound to make sure baby was in the right place and that everything looked good-considering my recent pregnancy past. I went in two weeks later and was hoping to hear a heartbeat. The look on my doctor's face was unforgettable. I knew something wasn't right and asked if the sound was turned on cause I certainly didn't hear anything. He told me that there wasn't as much form as there should be-and there was no heartbeat. I was crushed. He quickly went on that maybe I hadn't calculated right and wasn't as far along as I thought I was, etc. I knew I was right. The baby just wasn't forming or growing at all. I miscarried within the week-at school none the less.
The following weeks were hard. I tried to tell everyone and myself that things were fine and that when the time was right we would be able to have another baby. Deep down I though I started preparing myself for the fact that we may not ever have another baby. I wanted to wait a while to try again. I took baby stuff to my parent's house in Colorado so I didn't have to look at it. I thought about selling or giving away ALL my baby stuff. (Thankfully I didn't go that far.) After about 5 months, I couldn't stand it any longer and decided to try again. 4 weeks later= positive test! Of course, it wasn't the getting pregnant that I'd had a hard time with, it was the staying pregnant. It had kind of become a sick game. I asked Ricky how long he thought this one would last. I didn't really want to go to the doctor and spend lots of money if I was just going to miscarry again-I could do that on my own.
At 6 1/2 weeks I made my 8 week appointment. I was just hoping to still be pregnant by then. When I went to the doctor I really almost cried when we could hear a solid heartbeat. The doctor did ultrasounds for my first few visits since I was considered high risk. Baby looked great and we were ecstatic!
I won't go into all the challenges I have faced this time around. I just want to say that I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to be a mother and to be having another baby. We are so excited to have this little angel bless our home. We are truly grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord in our lives.